myveryown_nemesis | agitated, but not jangly. just perturbed (Reply)

Good Afternoon, you Beautiful People!

I am agitated. Not to the point of being jangly, just perturbed. I set up a virtual appointment with a nutritionist/RD for my husband for today at 2:00, and she hasn't acknowledged my text or email. I tried to call, but she doesn't take voicemails when she is on the line. The meeting is supposed to be happening now, and if she doesn't reach out while I'm writing this, I will probably send a "sorry, but this doesn't work for me" message and find a new nutritionist/RD. I am perturbed, but not volatile, and I know my next step, so I'm not jangly about it.

In addition to the appointment, which may not be happening, I need to visit John's surgeon's office to obtain the necessary order for his X-rays. Tomorrow, he has an appointment with his primary, and then we'll head over to get X-rays done (I'm pretty sure you don't need an appointment for X-rays, but I can call and verify that today).

Other than being perturbed and managing John's appointments, I'm clearing all of the messes around the house that didn't get cleared out on Monday. And I'm analyzing my spending, and realizing that I have no funds left for incidentals for the rest of this month, since I am putting myself on a cash/debit budget. It's kinda annoying that I already ran out of my fun money for the month, but ya know, that's just the price I need to pay, I guess. I'll survive.

I'm feeling secure in my sobriety, comfortable in my food choices, and grudgingly accepting the spending practices I need to change. All is good.

I hope you find something beautiful in your life today, and as always, thank you for being here.

[Oh. And I accidentally misrepresented myself...I still have $12 and some loose change that are available to me. I mathed wrong the first time.]