Blather & Whatnot

Hello, my Beautiful Friends!

My weekend went well: I skipped my face-to-face meeting to mow the lawn, had several conversations with my husband about how he felt about his work, and if it's time to start the retirement process, went out to dinner on Saturday and brunch on Sunday, and took a nap on Sunday afternoon.

Today has mostly been about organization: grocery order placed, budget and bills reviewed, rescheduled some appointments (more on that in a moment), planned tomorrow's errands, and worked halfway through a huge pile of things to be filed. I haven't done any real filing this year, just stacking. So I filed this year's stuff by month, except for medical. I have a medical pile to file, and I need to see if there's anything from 2025 that I don't need anymore. I'll do that later in the week.

On to the reason behind the rescheduling: I was talking to my friend P who was at her place by the ocean. I told her to say "hi" to the ocean for me, and she responded with "Certainly, but do you want to come visit me in June and say 'hi' to the ocean yourself?" To which I said that I would absolutely love to do that. I had two appointments for that week, so I moved them to the following week. My husband has a couple of appointments that week, but he said he should be fine to fend for himself. I am really looking forward to this little get away! I haven't seen P in years, and she has the same damn type of cancer as my sisters. So, I'll be damned if I miss this opportunity. It's a beautiful thing.

I also had a great session with my therapist. It wasn't really therapy, though. I told her that I thought I was in a good place now, and while I would miss our sessions, I don't feel like I *need* them anymore. And she agreed. So we talked for an hour about how I feel now as compared to how I felt when we first started sessions (July last year). We talked about how my anxiety is no longer in charge, and how my sobriety continues to go stronger. I thanked her for her time and for listening (she's an excellent listener), and she thanked me for teaching her about SMART Recovery (she had heard of it but didn't know a lot about it). She loves the hula-hoop analogy as much as I do. I'm still listed as an active patient for 6 months, and after that, if I wanted to come back for more therapy, I would have to do the intake process again, but she would be the first therapist they would try to schedule for me. It felt good to hear her say that I was ready to move on without her, and at the same time, I'm going to miss her.

Okay, that's all I got for today. I hope you found something beautiful in your day, and as always, thank you for being here!

**Title explanation: when I type halfway, my brain sees "hal-fway". It is so hard to unsee.

Good Morning, you Beautiful People!

I was going to mow the lawn today, but since we are going to continue to have great weather through the weekend, I think I'm going to focus on the donation organization instead. And updating the poetry journal. I've categorized and uploaded 116 poems so far. Some are from the archives, untouched, showing what I was like as a young poet. Others are older poems that have been reworked or caressed a bit, and others are what I am writing now. I have about another 70 poems to review, possibly revise, and to categorize. As I've been adding to the journal, I've been deleting them from my computer files. I will be keeping anything that I want to edit or just don't want to share in text file format, most likely saved to a thumb drive. Oh, and I also have a file somewhere with older poems that I know I won't want as part of the public journal. When I find them, I'll park them in text files, as well.

Those are my thoughts for the day. It is now after lunch, so no longer morning, but I'm not changing the greeting. Time to fold the towels that I didn't fold yesterday, sort through a couple of boxes, then sit down in a comfy chair with my laptop and a notepad to continue cataloging my poetry.

I hope each of you find something beautiful in your day, and as always, thank you for being here!

Today is a rainy day, but Ted and I snuck in a walk early in the morning, so that's a good thing. And I also did my PT exercises before showering--woot!

I still haven't made my appointments. I think I need to do that once I'm done checking in. No more procrastinating on that one. [Can you tell that I REALLY hate making appointments?]

My office is chaos again, from sorting through the donations--the boxes that were in my husband's office have moved into my office. I got some work done on them yesterday, but I still have a way to go. The chaos is going to have to be an office mate today, because I have other things higher on the priority list -- finalizing the May budget, for one. The bathrooms are due for their cleaning, AND I'm behind on laundry. If I can make quick work of the budget and bathrooms, then I might be able to work on the donations while running the laundry. Fingers crossed.

That's what's on my mind today -- and if you notice, I didn't mention alcohol, food, or spending once. Go me! I hope you find something beautiful in your day, and as always, thank you for being here.

Good Morning, you Beautiful People!

Today is normally the day for all the errands, followed by laziness, but I had to pick up the dog food and groceries yesterday due to some faulty planning and some dog food going bad. Since we have added a kibble to Ted's FreshPet for digestive health, we've decided to just transition him to the kibble, and let go of the food that needs refrigeration. He will still be getting broth, egg, or a dash of doggy-safe leftovers added to his meals, so he shouldn't get bored with the kibble, and his tummy seems to be happier now. We have been using the same kibble that his vet/doggy day care uses, so that also means when we do have to take him to the kennel, we won't have to pack up food for him.

So anyway, back to today -- due to the errand split, the week is now a bit jumbled. Today, I'll be taking care of some returns, and resupplying the OTC meds. I usually do budget work on Monday, but I skipped that, and I'm going to hold that off until tomorrow. I started updated passwords a couple of weeks ago, and I'd like to finish that before focusing on the budget. The current bank balance covers the upcoming auto-paid bills, so it can wait another day or two. I did complete the most important task for today: paying the personal property task, so that's a good thing.

The other thing that I'm working on today is prepping donations. To be completely honest, I really just want to toss it all the garbage and just be done with it. I think I'm going to be brutal on the decision-making -- anything that isn't absolutely pristine will be tossed. I just want to get this extraneous stuff out of the house -- it is feeling very heavy to me right now.

I still have appointments to schedule. I should probably do that now, before I head out to do the errands. I really hate calling to schedule appointments. In AA terms, it's definitely one of my "defects." I don't know how much of it is ADHD brain and how much of it is GAD brain, but dang, my brain really hates making phone calls, particularly the ones for setting appointments.

Oh well, I guess it's time to start getting things done! I hope you find something beautiful in your day, and as always, thank you for being here.

Hello, my Beautiful Friends!

The weekend was lovely, and today has also been going well. I'm getting reacquainted with my morning and evening routines, and I'm starting to feel a difference. Starting the day in a relatively orderly fashion and closing the day without rushing really is better for my ADHD brain. But my ADHD brain sometimes really resists the process. Silly brain.

The recklessness with food seems to be calming down a bit, but as I mentioned last week, I really do need to discuss it with my PA/NP (I always forget which one she is, and I'm too lazy to look it up!) and consider returning to Wegovy or something similar. So overall, I'd say things are rather steady, and that's always a good thing.

I hope you each found something beautiful in your day, and as always, thank you for being here!

#APoemADay

There's no prompt paired with this one...the last two lines were just rolling around in my head, so I folded them into a quatrain:



trove

once wrapped in soft cotton
held safe underground --
these things i've forgotten
waiting to be found

05-02-2026

Horror Writing Prompt #2170: #unmoored
#horrorprompt

speck

here, beneath the sky
unmoored, undone, unanchored
i may float away

05-01-2026

Good Morning, my Beautiful Friends!

It rained quite a bit last night, but the temps for today are glorious (high of 63F/17C). I'll be mowing later today, but everything is still sopping wet out there, so it will have to wait. So I'm enjoying a mostly lazy morning. I'm sipping my coffee, checking in here, and then will do more work on the online poetry journal. I might even get those appointments met.

Once the yard is dried out enough, I'll do the mowing, and I'll measure out the front foundation bed so that I can pick up the plants and gardening supplies I need to take care of it this weekend.

My sobriety braid (which I haven't referred to that way for a bit), is doing okay. The alcohol strand is strong, the spending habits strand is also strong, and the eating habits are the still the weakest link. I'm seriously considering talking to my PA about going back on Wegovy. It's not that food chatter is loud, it's that it's deep, and I don't realize I've been listening to it until I'm already engaged in reckless eating. It also takes such a long time for my belly to tell my brain that it's full -- it can take over an hour. My belly/brain connection is definitely f'ed up. I need to address that, so I'm going to my PA about that, and see what she thinks. I don't want my braid to be permanently unbalanced, you know?

That's it for this morning. I hope each of you find some sort of beautiful little surprised tucked into your day, and as always, thank you for being here!

Good Afternoon, my Beautiful Friends!

That long to-do list from Monday is now a “mostly done” list. I still need to set those appointments--my ADHD brain really hates setting appointments. I also need to work on the donation prep -- I currently have two staging zones, and I need to consolidate it to one. I just haven't been in the right brain space for the work. I've been spending most of my free time working on the poetry journal. I've decided to let the chapbook thing go. I like the idea of it, but the way I was doing it was just taking too long. I haven't tossed it aside completely, though. I tucked in my “maybe” journal bin, so I can come back to in the future if I want. Mostly, I've been working on adding poems to the dedicated poetry journal I set up on Dreamwidth: https://a-poem-a-day.dreamwidth.org/

I'm working on developing a tagging system as I go along, and so far, I'm feeling comfortable with what I'm choosing to post publicly. There are only a handful of poems so far that I've decided need to be part of a private archive. Some because they just aren't very good, and some because I just don't feel any affinity with the version of me who wrote them. I'm finding that sorting through the poetry is as cathartic as writing it.

That's all for me today! I hope you find a touch of beauty in your day, and as always, thank you for being here!

#APoemADay

view from aisle 3

i saw your ghost
in the checkout line
at the grocery store
no one wants to use
awkwardly flirting
with the cashier old
enough to be my
mother.

you will never change.

04-27-2026