sometimes, you just need a really emotional zoom meeting with a bunch of self-proclaimed alcoholics

Good Morning, you Beautiful People!

This morning's AA meeting was filled with emotions. On Wednesdays, we read from Living Sober and then share how the reading affected us or whatever we feel called to share. This was the last reading in the book (we will start from the beginning again next Wednesday), and the message is, "I hope you join us, and we wish you well, no matter what path you take." There was a lot of sharing about feeling safe in the group, that we felt like family, and a few folks wondering where they would be if they weren't part of the group. Sometimes, you just need a really emotional Zoom meeting with a bunch of self-proclaimed alcoholics. I love those people, and reconnecting to my "sober family" is a massive part of why my sobriety is going strong.

I'm still in the honeymoon phase of the food program I'm using; therefore, I feel rather confident there, as well. I need to continue working through the handbook with my focus on reckless eating. I'm tired of letting myself believe that food controls me; it's not true, and it clearly has caused physical, emotional, and mental damage. I'm ready to change my thoughts on this, and I look forward to applying the tools SMART Recovery offers.

While I don't want to say that reckless spending is on the back burner, I'm not putting it fon the front right burner (yes, I have a favorite burner on my stove which I use most often). I am addressing the urges of reckless spending, but I'm not digging too deep there; I'm allowing myself to tread water for a bit while I focus on keeping the reckless eating from pulling me down. I hope that makes sense; it was a beautiful analogy in my head, but now that I've written it, it looks a bit like nonsense. Especially since I decided to run with two different analogies. This is what one does when one has ADHD.

I hope you find something beautiful in your day, and as always, thank you for being here!