juggle nerf balls, not bowling balls

[myveryown_nemesis]

Good Afternoon, my Beautiful Friends!

 

You know that feeling when it feels like all of a sudden you know how to juggle and there aren't any balls crashing down on your head, and then the next second you remember that you DON'T know how to juggle, so you bop yourself in the head with a ball or two? 

 

Yeah, that feeling.

 

I was having that "ducks all lined in a row feeling", and I sat down to review the medical bills. I thought that everything was caught up, but I might have a few bills that had missed copays.

 

Nope.

 

BUT -- the balls that dropped were squishy ones. I took a deep breath, logged into my insurance account, and matched up bills to EOBs, and guess what? The $2,530-something the bills add up to is MUCH higher than EOBs say I owe (under $250). So now I have to choose between calling the billing offices or just paying what my insurance company says I owe instead of what the providers claim I owe. I also received a bill from one of my providers via text. Nope. I'm not paying that. I will call their billing office and ask for my itemized bill. In the mail. Yes, it's old school, but it makes it so much easier to verify against the insurance company statements.

 

So just a few annoying squishy balls -- I thought at first that I had totally screwed something up, but I didn't. It's just that the medical providers' billing practices are not on the same timeline as my insurance company's coverage payments. Yeah, it looks like there were a few missed copays on my part, but most of what we owe (according to the EOBs) are things that the copay doesn't cover, and we weren't immediately billed. My involvement in this billing avalanche is almost non-existent.

 

My husband and I are communicating much better, and I had a great therapy session this morning. I have decided that my sobriety has three legs: the abstinence from alcohol, the abstinence from disorganized eating, and the abstinence from relying on credit. It's three things that I'm refraining from, but it's one sobriety...a sober life. And that's a good thing.

 

I hope you found something beautiful today, and if you were juggling, I hope you were juggling nerf balls, not bowling balls.  And as always, thank you for being here!