myveryown_nemesis | nothing says the poems have to be good

Good Afternoon, you Beautiful People!

Today is mostly a lazy day. I struggled with my poem today...it was based on the question: "Do you have enough water to float in?" But as poems often do, it wandered to some other place. I am not convinced that I like it, but that's okay. The challenge is to write a poem most days. Nothing says the poems have to be good!

I went to my FtF AA meeting today, and was pleasantly surprised to see my friend S there. I knew she had another important endeavor, which was going to take her out of state today, so I didn't expect that she would have the time to come to the meeting. It was a sweet surprise. The theme of the meeting was supposed to be about gratitude, but it naturally moved to the topic of grieving. One of the participants shared about learning how someone dear to them had just died, most likely due to substance abuse or alcohol -- the cause of death won't be determined until the toxicology reports are complete -- the victim was found deceased in their vehicle on the side of the road. As the shares continued, the meeting came back around to gratitude. It was a complex meeting.

I'm feeling secure in my sobriety and eating habits. Most of my focus is on my spending habits, and it feels good to take action against the reckless spending that has been part of my adult life. I just wish I had started sooner, with the recovery mindset I'm using. It's giving me more focus than some of my past attempts at curbing my spending.

I hope you find something beautiful in your day, and as always, thank you for being here.