myveryown_nemesis | my didactic prattling

Good Morning, you Beautiful People!

Today is about cleaning the house, doing the laundry, and doing self-inventory work. I also want to go through my costume jewelry collection (some of it is crap and needs to be tossed, some is possibly of monetary value without personal attachment, and some of it I'm quite attached to. Anything that falls in that middle category is going to be packaged up and then sent to a place that will send you a check for the value that their appraisers determine. Will this appraisal be accurate? Probably not...but my brain is not built for using an Etsy seller's account, pricing my goods, dealing with postage...yada, yada, yada. So that's a price I'm willing to pay, and a check I can deposit is worth more than I jewelry I no longer wear (some of it hand-me-down, most of it purchased in second-hand stores, including Etsy shops). Oh, and I will probably be closing my Etsy account, since that's one of the places I've spent an exorbitant amount of money over the years. Or maybe I'll keep it for Christmas Shopping, and just remove my bookmark for it. I dunno. I'll have to think about it.

I expect my husband to provide some friction against the spending habits I'm changing, and the system I'm using to manage those habits. He is sending signals that I'm talking about money and budgeting too much, and I think I'm stressing him out. I need to watch my step there, because he is still in recovery from a major surgery and on medications that affect his cognitive function. However, I also know that he is deep in the habit of reaching for a credit card to buy whatever he thinks he "needs" at the moment. I want to respect the first part of the situation, but be ready to *gently* challenge the latter. I think I've been focusing too much on the gentle *challenge* aspect, as the last time I prattled on about how I'm planning on organizing my spending money, he said that I was lecturing again. I thought I was just keeping him in the loop, but I guess my prattling was a bit didactic. I need to watch that.

I'm feeling strong in my sobriety, comfortable with my new eating habits, and determined to create a system that encourages mindful spending instead of leaving the door open for reckless spending.

I hope you find something beautiful in your day, and as always, thank you for being here.